Pain Relief

Disclaimer” Sponsored post brought to you by LG Medical Supply Online

neck pain Pain ReliefIn the ongoing battle to deal with the chronic pain, resulting from my accident, I have tried a number of things. Pain medication and muscle relaxants allow me to sleep. Celebrex, prescribed for arthritis, also has a positive effect on my neck pain. And Cymbalta is pretty much a miracle drug for me since it tackles both chronic pain and depression in one little pill. But honestly, I would rather not be a walking drug store, and so I have tried several non-chemical pain relief methods.

I have never had great success with chiropractic though I know many, including 2 of my kids, who go regularly with excellent results. I haven’t been to a chiropractor in quite some time as I got tired of hurting more when I left than I did when I went in.

I also tried deep tissue massage. LOVED this although it is NOT a relaxing Spa-like experience! I would still be doing this on a regular basis except that it is not covered by my insurance and it just doesn’t fit in the budget.

Physical therapy was of limited help. Partly because the therapist massaged my neck every time I went. Loved that. But eventually I had to acknowledge that although my therapy appointments were pleasant … I wasn’t getting lasting pain relief!

Heating pads help some times, especially at night when pain is keeping me awake. And cold packs have frequently brought me relief from end of day neck pain. Especially when stress is complicating things. I keep a number of cold packs in my freezer so they will be instantly available. By the way … a bag of frozen veggies, especially peas or corn, works great if you don’t have an ice pack available.

One thing that we tried, although not long enough to know how well it worked, was a TENS Unit or Muscle Stimulator. These basically send a very small electrical charge into the nerves or muscles in the painful area causing them to move or stretch. The sensation, while not pleasant, is not at all painful. It’s sort of like a tiny pinch. As soon as I unhooked from the machine the sensation ended. Unfortunately my insurance declined paying for the unit and we couldn’t afford to pay cash for it. Especially not knowing if it would bring lasting pain relief in my case.

I have been seen by several neurosurgeons and told that surgery is not an answer in my case. I’m not sure whether I’m glad to know that or not. I really don’t like the idea of surgery on the nerves in my neck. But I hate hearing that there is little or no chance that my chronic pain will ever end.

For now … I get steroid shots in my neck 3 or 4 times a year. I take medication to manage the pain daily. And I use heat and cold to deal with flare ups as needed. And I try to remember to be grateful that I get some pain relief in those ways, that the pain is not worse, and that I am still independently mobile!

Migraine

Although I am fully to committed to continuing Allie’s Story for you, I will also, from time to time, take on another writing project. The Lightning and the Lightning Bug, The Write Practice, The Red Dress Club, etc. I hope that you will find these stories, too, to be interesting and well written.

*****

button Migraine

Write about a character in pain.

*****

migrainesufferer 300x180 MigraineJenn reached to punch the button on her alarm clock that would stop the crescendo beeping sound designed to wake her up. It had succeeded in it’s intended purpose. She was awake. She was also cranky as all get out and felt a migraine headache looming. Didn’t seem fair to feel this bad in the morning when she hadn’t indulged in a single drink the night before! Doctors had insisted that alcohol was not a good mix with her pain meds and migraine pills. Lectured her about famous people who took their pills with a beer or a glass of wine and never woke again. Some times … when the morning light hurt this bad … she wondered if they had done it on purpose!

She rolled over and sat up on the side of the bed. Everything hurt and the room was spinning wildly. This was not going to be good. She began to lie back down and then instantly knew that she had to move fast. She got up quickly and ran to the bathroom. Her knees fell straight to the cold tile floor and her forehead smacked the porcelain toilet seat. She groaned at the new flash of pain and then lost her battle against vomiting. It felt like her insides were being torn out and the pain in her head was growing worse. When her stomach was empty, she reached up and flushed the toilet, without moving her head. The cool mist that came off the water felt good on her flushed face.

Just then the snooze alarm, in the bedroom,  began it’s arc of high pitched noise anew. She shut the bathroom door with her foot, wrapped a bath towel around her head, grabbed another as a pillow, and lay down on the cold tile floor to cry. It hurt too much to do anything else.

Me, Myself, & Her

Allume is doing a once weekly writing assignment … an overflow of the 31 Days to a Better Blog that we did on Facebook. I want to participate but I am finding it to be a challenge to fit everything into my suddenly busy days! I have class every day from 12:30 – 4:30 and then about an hour of homework in the evenings. I’m finding some of it to be really confusing. All of it is dry! I’m looking forward to role-playing, etc, as I tend to retain more content from what I actually DO than I ever do from listening or reading. Anyway, between the class, normal household chores, spending time with my family, etc. and I’m filling these days pretty well up!

The assignment yesterday from Allume was this: Write a normal blog post from the first person.  Then go back and change it to the third person.  Be sure to add in any details that a bystander might not know. I kept struggling to figure out HOW I was going to do that. I finally decided that I will change it a little to suit me. icon smile Me, Myself, & Her Enjoy!

1st Person – I did the dishes. (short post, huh)

3rd Person -

1329122 Me, Myself, & HerJust looking at the dirty dishes piled on the counter by the sink made Beth feel tired. She was tempted to just leave them in hopes that someone else would do them. But when she resigned her job she had told her husband that she wanted to take back over some of the household chores that he had been covering, knowing she was exhausted. So cleaning the kitchen was now on her to-do list!

She slowly organized the dishes to make them easier for her to grab. She emptied the dish drainer where the last load of dishes had sat to dry. It would be a blessing to have a dishwasher but having lost over $1000 in their monthly income last month, she knew it was NOT in the budget! Carrying the stack of plates to the cabinet in the dining room reminder her of the arthritis creeping up her back. She set the plates in the cupboard and then pressed her hands firmly against the small of her back while she took the few steps to the kitchen.

Once the clean dishes had all been put away she pulled a chair in from the dining room and set it in front of the sink. The arthritis in her legs, hips, and lower spine had made it nearly impossible for her to stand long enough to wash a batch of dishes. She had already stood too long doing the work of getting ready to wash dishes.She eased carefully into the hard wooden chair and sighed in relief as the pain in her back retreated a bit. Leaning forward she placed the plates in the sink first and then added bowls and flatware. She reached for the bottle of dish soap and squirted a liberal amount into the sink. She then started the hot water. Suds began to climb up the sides of the sink. She laughed as her kitten came running to see the running water, jumped into the rinse sink, and swatted at the billowing bubbles. She picked the cat up and lowered him gently to the floor. Grabbing the spray hose she rinsed the sink down to wash away all traces of it’s feline visitor.

Leaning into the sink to wash the dishes she splashed water into her lap and across the front of her shirt. It reminded her of people of small stature and people in wheel chairs who were forced in so many ways, to function in a world designed for taller people. She was glad, even handicapped as she is, that she is able to do this small chore to bless her family. She finishes the dishes, admiring the rainbow colors that rise on the bubbles along the way. Finally all of the dishes are in the drainer and she stands slowly. After a luxurious stretch she drags the chair back to the dining room. She then wipes down the stove and all the counter tops. Finally done she grabs a glass of water and turns off the light.

It’s time for a rest so she returns to her office and drops into her chair. Trying to avoid unnecessary pain medicines she decides today’s pain only merits Advil. She shakes 3 into her hand and swallows them with her glass of water. One chore done. In an hour or so she would need to tackle the laundry.

pain

We were encouraged to write poetry today in a writing group in which I’m participating. I wrote one over on Tigger and then decided to try a darker one here. My arthritis is getting worse and I am struggling with some very real fears of worse pain and immobility. As well as some probably less reasonable fears of abandonment. Life has not been easy lately. I feel like we are at some kind of crossroads but every direction is dark. Anyway … be gentle with this piece of my heart please …

broken glass 300x225 pain

Pain has become my constant companion

Neither friend

Nor enemy

Just here

With me always

Shattered glass in my neck

I feel the pieces grinding against each other

Strange pain down my arm

As if my funny bone nerve got stuck

And never released

Some days the pain buzzes like a swarm of bees

Shoulder to fingertips

Most days just the dull ache

Reminding me that it wasn’t there before

The bruised fist at the base of my skull

Wounded in some fight I don’t remember

Now bunched tightly below my brain

Aching … always aching

Mind blowing pain in the knees

A single step brings a flash of light

An unintended groan

A soft whimper

Trying to count it joy

For too soon even these steps may be taken from me

The arthritis has crept

Like ivy climbing a trellis

My knees to my hips

My hips to my spine

Climbing to join the pain in my neck

And render me immobile

Alone in a chair

Behind a closed-door

Waiting …

 

Rejoicing in the Pain

Jesus Calling – February 9

Do not recoil from afflictions, since they are among My most favored gifts. Trust Me and don’t be afraid, for I am your Strength and Song.

Psalm 27:8

My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.”
And my heart responds, “LORD, I am coming.”

2 Corinthians 4:7

We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves.

Isaiah 12:2

See, God has come to save me.
I will trust in him and not be afraid.
The LORD GOD is my strength and my song;
he has given me victory.

Do not recoil from afflictions, since they are among My most favored gifts. 

Excuse me? I have a hard time seeing affliction as a gift! And if it is one … it feels more like a prank gift with a nasty surprise inside!

My head KNOWS that God is in control and nothing happens to me, or in my world, that is out of His will. My head knows that I am supposed to trust Him to be working everything (even the hard stuff) together for my good.  My head knows that I am called to give thanks in ALL circumstance, that this is the day God has made for me and I’m supposed to rejoice and be glad in it! My head knows all that! But my heart? It’s still feeling a little leery!

My depression has kicked up a notch today and I was driving to a doctor’s appointment indulging in a little self-pity … thinking that my last 5 years have been about as hard as anyone could imagine. The little voice in my head spoke up and responded that I hadn’t experienced the death of a spouse or a child. I’m going to admit to you here that my response to that was “And I’m supposed to be grateful that? Isn’t that the LEAST I’m due considering everything else I’ve been through?” I AM grateful that I haven’t experienced that level of loss … I really don’t think I would survive it. So yes … I am grateful … but what about the things that have happened … sickness, pain, depression, cancer, rejection, job changes, bankruptcy, debt, an adult child in jail, etc. Does He REALLY expect me to be grateful for those things?

Hard as it is … and it’s HARD … I think the answer is yes. Yes, I should be thankful for what He is doing in me, and in my life, through this pain! I can give thanks that He has made me gentler, more compassionate, slower to judge! I can be grateful that He has given me a more giving spirit … that He has opened my heart, and my voice, to a level of honesty and openness that reassures others that I’ve been there. I understand! He has allowed me to experience better, worse, sickness, health, poverty, wealth, etc. and He has held my marriage together! He has allowed my adult children to choose to walk away from their faith and their family … but He has filled those empty places with a plethora of daughter-friends online for whom I can be a voice of support and encouragement.

He has given me MUCH MUCH more than I can bear alone … but I do not have to bear it alone. He is with me … ready and willing to carry my burdens! And yes … I should be thankful!

February 9 – The Joy Dare

3 Gifts that were surprises – unexpected Grace!

My (upcoming) BlissDom trip!

My Eeyore lanyard (I’ll share that on my other blog in a few minutes)

Loving words … in a comment, on a Facebook page, the the conversation box of a Words With Friends game.