I wrote a wonderful (okay … I thought it was wonderful) post about my experiences traveling on Amtrak, using my iPad, while I was in my private car and feeling inspired. When I finished I told it to save as a draft at my blog website. I wanted to add pictures to it before posting. Yesterday I went looking for the draft ,,, it’s not there! In the mean time the blogpress app that I was using was being obnoxious so I punished it by deleting it. Thinking my Amtrak essay is gone forever … and given how many things I want to write … it may stay that way …. BUT I was really proud of that piece? What say you? Should I revive it …. and make it better, stronger, faster … the blog version of the 6 Million Dollar man! (Did you notice that I took my pain meds and sleeping pill right before I sat down here. The spelling errors are cracking me up!)
I was hoping things would rapidly return to normal after last week but we are still hunkered down at our computers entering tons of data. I can’t do that on pain pills. Well … I could … but! Anyway things should begin to ease up soon so that I can actually write my reveiw and recaps of Relevant. I don’t want to sell it short because I want all of you to come with me next year! I did write about my personal Relevant Miracle today over on FaithWalk. Go check it out!
I’m thinking about making some changes on all my blogs. This one will be the most the same. And I am considering hiring someone to help me restore my lost content. (pre-hacker) Journey I want to make a true journal of my efforts to lose a LOT of weight. And at the same time chronicle my struggle with depression. Spiritual emphasis on both because I truly do believe that at their core my addictions, control issues and depression … are spiritual battles! I was blessed to have a brief, but awesome, chat with a very sweet lady at Relevant who is a Christian counselor and she really encouraged me to go that direction. To journal (daily) praises (at least 3), concerns to give to God, a daily Scripture (God talking to me) and a prayer (my response to God.) I’ll share more about that later. But I would love if some of you would pop in there once in a while to give me some accountability and encouragement. Today I wrote about a very scary starting number. Sigh. And Faith Walk will continue much as it has been although I certainly hope to be more regular.
I was walking across the lobby at work today and saw a woman sitting with her daughter waiting for an admissions appointment. I have known this woman for probably 20 years. We have never been friends but we did go to the same church for a long time. Every time life provides an opportunity for us to chat I walk away feeling judged and found wanting. I don’t know that she does it on purpose. But I have seen her be friendly to others. To me it seems like she thinks I am a waste of her time and energy. Maybe that’s not it at all and I am just as guilty of judging as I am accusing her of being! I just hope that I don’t do that to people. I don’t want anyone, ever, to walk away from an encounter with me, in life or online, feeling devalued. I truly believe that each of you, my friends, are precious gifts and I want to convey to you that you are valued, treasured, important, to me and I thank God for you! So if you catch me giving less … call me on it! Really!
OK … I’m past funny and onto seriously sleepy! See y’all later!
Beth
