I’m in a lot of discomfort today. I wrote about it here and it’s gotten worse since then. I can’t stand or walk and when I try my back starts cramping too. I’m trying ice, elevation, medication, rest, and prayer. Not necessarily in that order.
I’m kind of scared. There’s part of me that wants to believe this is just the result of overworking my muscles, and possibly a potassium deficiency, but there’s another part of me that is VERY afraid. I’m refusing to think too much about it but my brain keeps going back to “what if.”
- What if I can’t walk again?
- What if I need to go to the doctor, have surgery, or treatment, how do we handle that? With no insurance, no savings, no money!
- What if I can never handle stairs again? They have been an issue for a long time but I have been able to manage the 4 steps from the sidewalk to the kitchen door. What do we do if I can no longer handle even those?
That’s enough. I am not going to lie down and embrace defeat. I am not going to think negatively. I am going to pray and trust that God will work this too for my benefit and His glory! And if we have to deal with the “what if”s in days to come … we will handle that too!
But I’d really appreciate it if you would pray for healing with me!